I wish I could rely on him. I told him something that was scary for me. It really was. It's nothing to laugh about, or to take lightly because I'm in tears thinking about it. My last relationship must have damaged me, traumatized me, in a way I don't know how to fix. Electronics are all around us. But seriously, I am upset. And he just... ignores me. It hurts. I wish he would say something like "You know I would never do that..." or SOMETHING. Get me into a better mood, dumb-butt. And I was already partially upset because he hasn't come to one thing I've performed in this semester. I can understand, they are at bad times, like at 1pm on Friday and the last one was at 7:30pm Tuesday... But this concert is on a Saturday at 7pm... Still, weekend before finals... I'm just a little hurt. Ok? I'm going to complain. I haven't in a while and I deserve to let my feelings out to SOMETHING every now and then. I'm going to go watch/read Kamisama Kiss now, and hopefully I'll laugh...
So, what if I cut off all the ways of getting in contact with me? What will you do? My Skype is on, but it's on "Do Not Disturb" mode, so I won't get audible notices. Even if I see one, I'm probably not going to respond. I closed my Facebook, Twitter, AND tumblr tabs. I turned off my phone. I'm just so tired, I don't want to talk to ANYONE. So now I'm watching all the anime I've been wanting to watch but haven't got a chance to, on hulu, thanks to Christian. I'm actually not so upset anymore, maybe it's because I removed all obstacles of feeling. I've removed myself from the world, except for this. I just don't want to care anymore, it's nothing but trouble. I wish I were a passive being, but now that it's gotten to me, I just can't deal anymore. I'll tell Twitter that I updated this, but after that, I'm closing it. I'm tired of emotion. Out.
This is a list of every Studio Ghibli (excluding Nausicaa since it was made before Studio Ghibli was created) movie, in order from oldest to newest. The bold are the films I don't own. The italicized are the films I have yet to see, but need to. I created this list because I wanted a way to watch all of the movies I owned in order from year of creation. They had one on Wiki, but I wanted my own. So here it is. I assume I'll be having a Studio Ghibli marathon with my sister soon then. Yay! Universal Century (main canon):
Mobile Suit Gundam (Gundam 0079) Mobile Suit gundam 0080: War in the Pocket Mobile Suit gundam 0083: Stardust Memory Zeta Gundam ZZ Gundam Char's Counterattack Gundam Unicorn Gundam F91 Victory Gundam G-Savior (live action. sucks ass) I got this list from Chris. He wants me to watch all of them. LOLk. I'll TRY, I just don't know when... So I put it HERE! Where I know where the list is! Ahhh, animu. We love it, ok. Mmmm. <3 |